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"GOD has not called me to be successful. He called me to be Faithful… Never forget or neglect anyone because nobody knows what's coming tomorrow. You will know their value when you can't meet them once again in the lifetime." Mother Teresa

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Whisper

Translated by me, Bulgarian to English translation

When love disappeared,
the pain and sadness is back and all is clear.
When the day’s gone,
the night swims around me
like a black swan.
When he decides to go
“Does he do it slow?”
Yes, you were watching your love dying.
Yes, you were unlimitedly crying.
You’ll feel guilty that you’re still breathing.
But you can’t stop.
Yes, your heart is still bleeding.
Is it a tear or a raindrop?
The dream was here, waiting
to disappear in the depths or sing.
The past beats inside me like a second heart.
To welcome the next fresh start.
Was this love… Acceptance,
Understanding, Appreciation?
Did this love understand the reason,
causing the huge mutation?!

След залеза на всяка обич,
настъпва болка и тъга.
След залеза на всяка вечер
остава мрак и тишина.
Когато някои си отива,
ти нямаш сили да го спреш.
Когато видиш че една любов умира,
ти не можеш с нея да умреш.
Разбираш че мечтите са измама,
че си обичала, а обич няма,
че споменът е болка отлетяла,
че си била щастлива, а не си разбрала. 
― Blaga Dimitrova

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Don’t Go in if You Don’t Have a Skin

He swallowed his proudness: “How do you feel?”
I answered: “I feel like I want to touch you, turn down the lights and crawl into that bed with you and spend the night making love with you. All night.”
He asked: “All night?”
I nodded.
“Deal”, he said.

 

In the past I used to tell myself: “You meant the world to me. Every day I wanted to show you, and every day I wanted to prove to you just how much you meant to me….People aren’t always what you want them to be. A lifetime isn’t forever, so take the first chance, don’t wait for the second one! Sometimes someone can disappoint you or let you down, but you have to give them a chance first. If you have a fall, only then you will teach yourself how to get up.  Because sometimes, there aren’t second chances! And if it turns out to be a mistake? So what! This is my life! A whole bunch of mistakes. You can’t just meet someone and expect them to be everything you’re looking for and then be angry when they’re not every hope.  It’s foolish to believe that someone will be what you imagine them to be.”

Or: “Hearts will break and people will hurt you, darling. Don’t allow somebody to control your life or allow to have a grater hold on your happiness.”

But now I think positively: Every minute that goes by will not return. Every day I’ll show you, and every day I’ll prove to you just how much you mean to me. How much you still mean to me. Some things just couldn’t be protected from storms. Some things simply needed to be broken off…Once you accept the fact that every day is a new day to begin again, life becomes a much easier path to walk. If you never get a second chance: Don’t be afraid! And what if you do get a second chance? You take it! Getting a second life is one thing. Making it a better life, that’s the trick.  I believe, that second chances are stronger than secrets. You can let secrets go. But a second chance? You don’t let that pass you by.

Tell Him

I can tell you some of the things I didn’t learn during my school years:

  • Learning about Logical Consequence is a good place to start.

  • Learning to Speak and Listen. The younger generation has been called the Silent generation….

  • Along with Manners should be extended Kindness and Respect for all people encountered in normal society.

  • It is better to know how to Defend oneself and never need to, than need to and not know how to.

  • They didn’t mention anything about Dating and Romantic relationships. “If a thing is worth doing, it is worth doing badly”, said G. K. Chesterton. With some things we will be awkward and fumble when we are learning about how to do them.

  • They didn’t teach me how to be Rich or how to be Poor.

  • They didn’t teach me how to know what’s going on in someone else’s mind.

  • They din’t teach me how to tell you, My Darling, I love you so much

  • They didn’t teach me anything worth knowing.

Life’s Greatest Serenity

When I was a child I loved to be alone, I had my dreams. That was the way I knew myself….till one day my dreams came through.

Most single women I know really love their lives. Some of my lifestyle features:

I have my coffee alone in the morning, if I feel like it, lunch at 2 ( if I want ) and dinner never, if that’s the way the day is winding down. Me, as a single woman do not worry about cooking unless I want to. And I don’t want to unless I like to.

 I love people. I love my children… but inside myself is a place where I live all alone and that’s where I renew springs that never dry up. I need real moments of solitude and self-reflection to balance out how much of myself I give away. When I am alone I want to be with others, and when I am with others I want to be alone. After all, I am a human being and human beings are like that.

Sometimes we suffer pangs of loneliness, sometimes we ache for the companionship of that mythic soul mate, but mostly we cherish our independence. We love doing whatever we want to do, when we want to do it.

I love not being judged, not being criticized, not being hemmed in. I love the give and take of making my own decisions…I love all those things and I’m aware that most single men I know don’t. They might be OK about living alone, but they don’t cherish these things.

Men often have a need to go to their “cave”. A cave is like “being alone”, but is temporary and – and this is the important distinction – can be experienced while a woman is sitting right next to him on the couch. Women can’t do this. We can’t “escape” to our alone spot when people are around. We’re too aware, too conscious of others’ needs and feelings. We have to physically get away.

Men can remain absorbed in an activity they love. The washing up can engage, dinner time can dominate, a partner might be hovering – and men can continue to do the thing they love (watch telly, fix a bike, read a book) without being distracted. Men (mostly) can satisfy their need to be alone (to get away and to do things they love) while being with a woman. In fact, they feel safer when they do them with a woman.

I find I can’t. When I’m by myself, I can be myself, which is what I want to be. Not just a part of someone else.

A man can be himself alone so long as he is alone… if he does not love solitude, he will not love freedom; for it is only when he is alone that he is really free.

The person who has not learned to be happy and content while completely alone for an hour a day, or a week has missed life’s greatest serenity