"GOD has not called me to be successful. He called me to be Faithful… Never forget or neglect anyone because nobody knows what's coming tomorrow. You will know their value when you can't meet them once again in the lifetime." Mother Teresa "The more society drifts from the truth, the more it will hate those that speak it…. If you loved someone, you loved him, and when you had nothing else to give, you still gave him love." George Orwell

What Is Love?

Love needs chance and time to grow. Two things as well: bodies and words. Like a rose, but no spur. 

Me: “I never set limits when I love someone. When I touched you, it made me trembling. You did not notice how gentle my soul is; it does not mean I blame you for that – ‘turned out addicted to another human being’.

Him: “I fell in love with her courage, her sincerity, and her flaming self respect. And it’s these things I’d believe in, even if the whole world indulged in wild suspicions that she wasn’t all she should be. I love her and it is the beginning of everything. I have to allow myself to be loved by you, Darling. Too much of the time I was blinded, hunting people to love me, people that don’t even matter, while all that time I waste, and the people who do love me have to stand on the sidewalk and watch me! It’s time to put an end to this.”

Even do not mention you love me, when someone else is catering for your needs.

Maybe you will ask me about if love and pain survive together? My answer is definitely “No”. And now you ask me “Why”? Because I cannot truly love anyone, feeling the pain so deep in my heart. Imagine the pain I feel like chains around my body. I cannot feel free to love anyone, can I?

According the way I accept and understand love, the only thing that can glue my mind to his, it is not loving his perfections; it is the attraction between me and someone’s  sarcastic and erosive nature.

Loving someone is a full time commitment. And we have to use this time wisely. The most important thing to know about real love is that love is an action from you and to you. Every single day, whether in a relationship or not, you must affirm that love is what you do, not what you say, and you must insist upon it with everyone in your life.

Before I commit to loving someone, I make effort to understand his heart, make effort to understand his soul, to see even his darkest corners. Healthy relationships are about forthright and honest communication.

To love someone, really love someone who really loves you, too, is about being a good, sane, supportive and caring partner; knowing how to understand and compromise; knowing to accept my partner for who he is. Without trying to change me or even him.

If you are in a relationship and trying to salvage or save it, you—both of you—must figure out and heal that which has been hurting you and your relationship.

If one partner changes, the other is forced to change or leave.

Learn to begin sentences with “I feel” or “I think” or “In my opinion”.  Do not defend yourself against that which you are not doing.

Stop thinking you have no control over what happens to you. Take charge of yourself and what happens to you day in and day out.

In the end I can try to answer the question “What Is Love?”: Real love and really loving relationships are consistent. They are not always easy, but they tend to run smoothly because everyone works at it. Love is what helps you deal with the curves that life throws at you—not what makes things more difficult. Love, real love, is support in a difficult world, not something that makes your life even harder.

I do not want to be with a person, who turns everything into an argument or a challenge. It is exhausting. It does not have to be this way. I refuse to live this way.


I Am in Love With You

   It’s reasonable to love. The real question is ”HOW TO LOVE”, but let me tell you something: “There is not a particular way of loving”. Love someone from the depths of your heart without any time to invade the person. Give to that person a personal space, because if you stifled the person he will finally hate you.

If you’ve ever been in love, you’ve probably at least considered classifying the feeling as an addiction. And guess what: You were right. As it turns out, scientists are discovering that the same chemical process that takes place with addiction takes place when we fall in love.

Love is a chemical state of mind.

Five hormones : Testosterone, Serotonin, Oxytocin, Vasopressin and Dopamine are guilty for the questions:

 “What is love?”, “Am I loved?” or, “Do I love?”

The brains of the madly in love look markedly different from the brains of those who are not in love, associated with craving and obsession.

When we are loved, we tend to feel it intuitively in our guts. But how does it work?

Is there an extrasensory perception in the heart that is able to read the feelings in another person’s heart?

Once in our life, we actually believe of meeting someone who can completely turn our world around. We start absorbing everything and actually want to hear more and in this way we accept the love we think we deserve.

And everything starts from the moment, when we start loving without knowing how…. We reveal our hopes for the future, dreams that will never become a reality, goals that maybe we would never achieve and the many disappointments life has thrown at us.

And after that?

After that he starts building the world of glass especially for us. And inside of this world he would not be embarrassed to cry with us, while we are hurting or laugh along when he makes a fool of himself.

I think it is so difficult to find that half who will make me whole and that goes for everything.

When I am in love I tend to focus on the positive qualities of him, while overlooking his negative traits.

The man I love I think he is unique, feeling romantic passion for no one else. And I am not worried what he will think of me, because I accept and love him for who he is.

I can be myself. There was no pressure, jealousy or competition but only calmness, when he wasn’t around. Very often simple things bring him to mind….

I open my heart knowing, one day I will experience a love and joy again that I never dreamed would be possible. I found that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart feel again. I am nothing special; a common woman with common thoughts, and I’ve led a common life. But I’ve loved him with all my heart and soul.

I am wondering, if this is enough to me?


Healing Smoothie

Сирни Заговезни или Прошка

В Библията е казано, че който не прости прегрешенията на ближния си, и Бог няма да му прости безбройните прегрешения, с които всеки ден го прогневяваме. 

На този ден се припомнят Христовите думи: „Ако не простите на човеците съгрешенията им, и вашият небесен Отец няма да прости съгрешенията ви.“

В някои български селища на този ден казват: „простено – прости!”, т. е. „аз ти прощавам и ти ми прости”.

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На Сирни Заговезни прошка си вземат по-млади от по-стари, деца от родители, младоженци от кумове – целуват ръка и изричат: „Прощавай, мамо, тате..“ – „Господ да прощава, простен да си!“, е задължителният отговор.

Произходът на празника е езически, а едва по-късно е намерил мястото си и в църковния календар. Сирница е имал изключително важно място и значение в народните обичаи, най-вече като празник на прехода от зимния към летния цикъл, а и като символ на очистването. Преминаването от едно към друго състояние, както и пречистването, изискват достатъчно време и сериозна подготовка, така че дните преди и след Сирница са натоварени със задачи и смисъл. Според православните канони в деня на Сирни Заговезни за последно се ядат храни от животински произход – след това започва заговяването, т. е. постенето. Говея означава също и мълча, а мълчанието е част от подготовката за предстоящите седмици на въздържание.

Chips Made for Foodies. How to Turn Your Oven into a Dehydrator


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Dehydration is one of the easiest ways to preserve food. You don’t need to buy special jars, preservatives or special equipment. You don’t even need to buy a dehydrator. Your oven, whether it be full-sized oven or a toaster oven, can dehydrate food perfectly in the same amount of time.

Bring the heat

The temperature of your oven is key for proper dehydration. Too hot and your foods will scorch or burn. You’ll want the oven’s temperature to be no more than 50 degrees Celsius for the best results. It takes 35g of raw meat to get 8g of air-dried meat. I added black pepper and whole cumin on the chicken.


The Sea of Sadness

Only To You: Love is like the wind, you can’t see it but you can feel it.



Just like dandelions dancing in the air
fly and chase their dream (without hands to hold and eyes to see).
Can you hear how my pain screams?
How I long for you, to hold you with a pair of small wings,
To touch my lips, accepting anything it brings.

No longer I can live without you
In this sea of sadness…
I would love to hear your voice.
Please, tell me “Do I have any choice?”.

I didn’t know if I could start my life again.
Till our love comes back and feel the pain….
Till you can fill my life like no one else can….
Searching your lips like a blind man.

No longer I can live without you
Living in this world like a lonely leaf,
Burnt of your voice in my dreams.
Please, tell me “Do I have any choice?”.


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Once upon a time… Roosevelt, Churchill and Stalin Decided to Meet



Once upon a time…the Big Three – Stalin, Roosevelt and Churchill decided to meet and divide the world. Along with serious discussions Churchill offered to fool around and to make some experiments using a beautiful Sheikh’s Persian cat voluntarily to eat English mustard.

The first was Churchill – started pushing in the cat’s mouth a silver tea spoon full of English mustard. Churchill pushed the spoon…pushed the spoon in the cat’s mouth…the harder he pushed in the stronger the cat got…and in the end the cat was lucky to escape.

Roosevelt took his turn:

-You British don’t know… Have a belief and try it in a democratic way,- he said and took out some salami, chopped it into small pieces, smeared a bit of English mustard and arranged a special pile for the cat to eat. But the Persian cat was so demanding about the food, so Roosevelt failed.

Finally came Stalin’s turn. He caught the beautiful,bushy cat’s tail,pushed it quickly in the jar full of mustard and allowed the cat to go and hide under the table. Then the cat started to Meow…Meow..Meow, licking the dirty and smelly tail. Just to wash out the mustard.

Then Stalin, pleased of himself, said :

– Here in our country Russia, we manage in this way- voluntarily and with a song in the heart.

Британците 10 Пъти По-Бавни от Pаботниците от Източна Европа. Eastern Europeans 10 Times Faster at Farm Work Than Brits


Програмата Inside Out South West   ce излъчи по Би Би Си 1 (05.02.2018). Британците са били на възраст между 18 и 23 години от Плимут. Те е трябвало да напълнят 2000 чанти със зеле (10 000 зелки).

Британците ca заснети как работят във ферма в Корниш (Cornish) в рамките на експеримент на Би Би Си. Участниците са били на възраст между 18 и 23 години от Плимут.

Гревил Ричардс, собственикът, казва, че иска да наеме повече британци заради Брекзит. Програмата показа нагледно проблемите – четири часа след началото  на  първият им ден, британците се оказали 10 пъти по-бавни от работниците от Източна Европа.

Дипломантка от Кембридж 22-годишната Хети Бъроуз, която е трябвало да си вземе почивка след час (било твърде студено на ръцете). Казано ѝ било да се качи на трактор, за да се стопли.

“Mного ме болеше, но не се отказах”, каза тя, и поднови работа. “Миналата година бях участник в два маратона. И успях, защо да не бера зеле?”.

Конър Стивънс, 18-годишен студент по музика, каза “Мисля, че загубихме парите на тези хора”. По думите му, той не мисли, че би могъл да напълнят 2000 чанти със зеле “два дни подред”. Друг участник сподели, че “никога повече” няма да “бере зеле”. Британците, на възраст между 18 и 23 години от Плимут, са били 10 пъти по-бавни. Афиджа Калпис (мениджъра) каза: “Mислех, че ще се откажете, а вие до края на работния ден постигнахте поставената цел. Трябва да довеждате до край това, което започвате. Много съм горд. Благодаря ви“.

Salmon Marinade with Chick Peas Pâté

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salmon marinade (after 12 h in fridge)

Healing Smoothie


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My Experience About How I Feel When I Love

I earned my place with the tidal waves.
I can’t escape this feeling, that I want you in my life.

I called your name as I crashed the gates…
And still I can’t escape this feeling, that I want you in my life.

No doubt there is much more that could be said here about the differences between loving someone and loving an idea of them.

Today I found out something I didn’t know.

I don’t think I would want love to function like a drug, giving me an immediate and sustained high. I do not want to do nothing, just passively receive the good feeling.
To know love, I found out I have to invest time and commitment… I do not dream that love will save me, solve all my problems or provide a steady state of bliss or security, only keeps me stuck in wishful fantasy, undermining the real power of the love.
When I have to keep things in my heart, I know I will never tell to another person. They are me, my private joys and sorrows. I cheapen myself, the inside of myself, when I tell them. Even more, I tell the people the things about me, what I am not.

Suffering is the face of my ego-centrism. Maybe you asked  me “Why”? My self does not differ mainly from yours in terms of the way we think. When someone steps on my foot, only I feel the pain. The basis of the self is not thought but suffering, which is the most fundamental of all feelings. I found out the man I love wanted to stay in silence for so many years. Why? In intense suffering the world disappears and suddenly he is alone with him self. He doesn’t like change, he doesn’t like me – the women to support or love him. He was caught between the old model of being the breadwinner and the new model of being the lover in my life. Unless he really is able to look back at what happened, he can’t find my feeling. Suffering is the face of his ego-centrism. Only knowing that, he can go back and find my feeling, and the feeling is what counts. Why? True love is a feeling…which can neither be defined nor described! True love is not a choice. It is something I know in my heart when all guilt, doubt and fear are removed. Am I the best or the worst person in his life? Maybe I drive everyone mad by being so good.

The being in love part means the other person loves you and you know it. For a female this means that I sense the man loves me by his actions and words, tone of voice, body language.

He keeps at it, keeps trying to express his love, then I fall in love with him. Means we love each other. I love him and he loves me. I love him because he first loved me.

I am what I love, not what loves me back.
I need an everyday shot of “I love you” from the other person and if I do not get it,I feel sad. etc. etc.
Which means I found the man, who I love, and he loved (loves) me back and I did enjoy it, but it is not the source of my happiness.

Yes I know this is very difficult and it sounds almost impossible. But if you believe the fact, it can give piece of mind, and heal lots of broken hearts.

Actually the feeling of being in love is very close to how a human being natural feels.
Loving him and being in love with him are two different things, but both are important. The latter usually applies more to him, a lover, partner, or significant other.
I don’t think I can be in love with the man, if he did not love me,  without loving me first.
So, first you love someone for all their good qualities, everything they are, everything they mean to you, and the role they play in your life.

When you are in love with someone, there is a much deeper passion involved. You don’t simply love them and want them to be well; you actually want them and all of them. …It sounds a bit aggressive, and at times it can appear to be, if love is not equally reciprocated. But being in love is very different than simply loving someone.

Being in love also makes you vulnerable, because you suddenly don’t care about yourself as much as you once did, and you begin caring more for the other person. When you care for someone, anyone, there is always the possibility that they won’t care for you back. This applies not only to a lover, but even to a parent or a friend.

Being in love is scary at times because you never know what will happen. In one second, you could be in love with someone and vice versa, but in the next second, they could change their mind or their heart.

Loving someone is based on what we can do for them. When we love someone we want what is best for them. We are willing to sacrifice our pleasure for their good and we want their good to continue.

In my life, I’ve been on both sides of that coin.
It can be an interesting question whether we love someone or merely love our idea of them.

Healthy Salmon Marinade Dish

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My Healthy Dish

It is my first time I’ve ever had an raw yolk in my meal. Mixed with grated ginger and beetroots salad. Eggs are one of the world’s healthiest foods. They contain numerous important nutrients and can provide you with impressive health benefits. Raw eggs do have all the same benefits as cooked eggs. 

Instead of salt I started using cinnamon.

I love fresh juice with pine apple and oranges.


My First SALMON MARINADE, No Salt or Sugar




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Omega-3 is termed as an essential fatty acid because the body cannot synthesise it, so it must be obtained from the diet.

Fish and shellfish have been important in human nutrition since prehistoric times. Fish farming is an age old practice and the ancient Assyrians and Romans farmed fish in ponds.

Salmon varieties are usually classified by the ocean in which they are located. In the Pacific they are considered part of the genus Oncorhynchus, and in the Atlantic they belong to the genus Salmo. There is only one migratory Atlantic species but five existing species of Pacific salmon: chinook (or king), sockeye (or red), coho (or silver), pink and chum. In the UK, the main source of salmon is from Scotland. Wild Alaskan salmon is also available.

Fish and shellfish are nutrient dense and salmon is no exception. It is an excellent source of high-quality protein, vitamins and minerals (including potassium, selenium and vitamin “B12”) but it is their content of omega-3 fatty acids that receives the most attention, and rightly so. It is this essential fat which is responsible for oily fish’s reputation as a valuable “brain food”.

232 calories

25 g protein

14.6 g fat

2.8 g saturated fat

A 100 g serving of salmon contains:



1 tablespoon peeled and finely chopped ginger, 1 tablespoon horseradish (or seeds) lemons (juice), chopped garlic, thyme, mint and black pepper.

How to make it:

Combine lemon juice, thyme, mint, black pepper, ginger and garlic in a deep plate. I added and 1 spoon horseradish or mustered (seeds).  Add sliced salmon in the marinade. Seal the plate and refrigerate. In every 1-2 hours turn over the slices. It takes at least 6 hours.

I tried the salmon after 6h . It was just delicious! 




В своя живот човек може да срещне интересни, но и различни хора. Точно поради това, че са различни, някои от тях решаваме да забравим още преди да са си тръгнали и запомнили техните лица, а други запечатваме завинаги в нашето сърце и с гордост може да наречем истински и верни приятели. Ти си в сърцето ми. Обичаме те!

Целувам те и те прегръщам мила моя!










toli last

Nightwish – Wish I Had an Angel

From Me, To The Sober

That is the way I describe myself in song lyrics!


Nolly’s Inspirational Quotes For 2018

  •  “I am thankful for all of those who said, “No” To Me. It’s because of them I’m doing it Myself.”- Albert Einstein

  •  “Happiness is not something ready-made. It comes from your own actions.”-Dalai Lama 

  • “Move out of your comfort zone. You can only grow if you are willing to feel awkward and uncomfortable when you try something new.”- Brian Tracy

  •  “Success does not consist in never making mistakes, but in never making the same one a second time.” – George Bernard Shaw

  •  “Think continually about what you want, not about the things you fear.” – Brian Tracy

  • “Don’t be too timid and squeamish about your actions. All life is an Experiment. The more experiments you make the better.”- Ralph Waldo Emerson

  • “All our dreams can come true if we have the courage to pursue them”- Walt Disney

  •  “Develop an attitude of gratitude this year, and give thanks for everything that happens to you, knowing that every step forward is a step toward achieving something bigger and better than your current situation.”

  •  “The only place where success comes before work is in the dictionary.”- Vidal Sassoon

  • “We Become What We Think About.” -Earl Nightingale


Традиционно Xоро в Pека Тунджа, ЙОРДАНОВДЕН -КАЛОФЕР, 2018

Православната традиция обединява празника Богоявление с празника Кръщение Господне, приемайки, че при кръщението на Иисус на река Йордан се появява Бог в своята триединна същност: Синът – Христос, Свети дух – във вид на гълъб, който каца върху Христос и Гласът на Небесния Отец (Глас Божи), който оповестява, че Христос е Негов Син. На този ден навсякъде, където има водоем, се извършва ритуалното хвърляне на кръста от местната църква. След изваждането на кръста се служи тържествена литургия, наречена Велик водосвет. На нея се обновява светената вода в храмовете. От нея всеки носи вкъщи. Тя пази от болести и пречиства душата. Пази се през цялата година за тежки моменти в семейството, ако някой легне болен. На Йордановден се месят три ритуални хляба, при чието замесване се ползва остатъкът от старата светена вода. Единият е за дома, вторият е за гостите, а третият се оставя пред вратите на къщата заедно с бакър вино за минувачите. Върху железен предмет се изгарят чемширените китки от предишното Рождество, а пепелта се поръсва със светена вода и се заравя под овошка или трендафилов храст. С донесената от църквата свещ се запалва с „нов“ огън кандилото в семейния иконостас. Там се полагат и новите рождественски китки. Вечерта срещу Йордановден е третата (и последна) кадена вечер. Тя трябва да е постна.

От ритуалните измивания и пръскания с вода на Богоявление тръгват и обичаите, свързани с поливането и мокренето на всички именици, независимо от годишното време.
Orthodox Church is the second largest Christian Church in the world — the baptism of Jesus in the Jordan River, seen as his manifestation to the world as the Son of God. Why was the 6th of January chosen for Epiphany, and, why was the 25th of December introduced for the Birth of Christ later on? Scholars furnish various answers. One of them tells us that according to the old Egyptian calendar the 6th of January was the day of the winter solstice, a major day of religious celebration for pagans. Some pagans (especially the Egyptians) celebrated on this day the conquest of winter darkness by the invincible God-sun.