"GOD has not called me to be successful. He called me to be Faithful… Never forget or neglect anyone because nobody knows what's coming tomorrow. You will know their value when you can't meet them once again in the lifetime." Mother Teresa "The more society drifts from the truth, the more it will hate those that speak it…. If you loved someone, you loved him, and when you had nothing else to give, you still gave him love." George Orwell

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Азис – Позна ли ме?

Азис – Позна ли ме?


През този малък град, вървиш човек
Превид от две позна ли ме? Напълно смазан след това със теб
Не ме позна и по добре.
През всеки малък град, върви жена Говори си сама
По спирки и по гари мръзне пак И чака вчверашния влак.

Ожених се, разведох се, и пак зарааади тебееее
С града преспах , испих света, всичко заааарад тебе.
А ти ми каза……
Защо забравяш как съм падала, и ставала пред твоя дом
А ти на топло в него пиеше сутрешното си кафе
Женати заедно с децата ти се радвахте на първи сняг
А Аз отвън седях премръзнала скрита в някой хол за кой ли път.

Ръцете ми от студ премръзнали държаха малък счупен телефон
И чаках твоето обаждане сякаш е наживот и смърт въпрос
Ще взема този стар ръждясъл нож и ще режа себе си
Ще махна всеки спомен аз до кост, режи със мен помагай ми

През този малък град върви човек превит на две позна ли ме?
Напълно смазан сле това със теб не ме позна и по добре.
През всеки малък град върви жена говори си сама
По спирки и по гари мръзне пак, и чака вчерашния влак.


Chris Rea – Somewhere Between The Stars


He swallowed his proudness: “How do you feel?”
I answered: “I feel like I want to touch you, turn down the lights and crawl into that bed with you and spend the night making love with you. All night.”
He asked: “All night?”
I nodded.
“Deal”, he said.

The Needles, Isle of Wight, July Morning 2018

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The Needles


Widely considered to be the Isle of Wight’s most famous landmark attraction, the three iconic chalk stacks known as the Needles stand, 30m above sea level, in the English Channel. Serving as a key point on bus routes and hiking trails, and with an amusement park built nearby at Alum Bay to take full advantage of their popularity, the Needles are a year-round hotspot for locals and tourists alike.

To enjoy the best available view of these striking stacks of chalk, take a journey in the famous chairlift, which sweeps down over the cliffs to give visitors a genuine sense of the scale of this unique local landmark.

My Healthy Carrot, Tomato and Garlic Juice

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My Home -Made Delicious Dip Sauce

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How to prepare home – made dip sauce (chilly):

  • 2 tomatoes

  • 1/2 salad onion

  • mix of sunflower seeds, linseeds and sesame (blended)

  • tofu around 100 gr

  • Cayenne pepper 

  • 1/2 lemon


Bittersweet Faith

To You

One of my core fears is that someone would think I can’t handle as much as the next person. It’s fundamental to my understanding of myself for me to be the strong one, the capable one, the busy one, the one who can bail you out, not make a fuss, bring a meal, add a few more things to the list. For me, everything becomes a lifestyle. Everything is an addiction.

What is empty will be filled, what is broken will be repaired, and what is lost can always be found, no matter how many times it’s been lost.

S.N Bittersweet



If we didn’t have bodies, we couldn’t feel the sun on our faces or smell the earthy, mushroom-y rich smell of the ground right after the rain. If we didn’t have bodies, we couldn’t wrap our arms around the people we love or taste a perfect tomato right at the height of summer. I’m so thankful to live in this physical, messy, blood-and-guts world. I don’t want to live in a world that’s all dry ideas and theorems. Food is one of the ways we acknowledge our humanity, our appetites, our need for nourishment. And so it may seem trivial or peripheral to some people, but to me, when I’m telling a story, the part about what we ate really does matter.

Bittersweet is the idea that in all things there is both something broken and something beautiful, that there is a sliver of lightness on even the darkest of nights, a shadow of hope in every heartbreak, and that rejoicing is no less rich when it contains a splinter of sadness. Bittersweet is the practice of believing that we really do need both the bitter and the sweet, and that a life of nothing but sweetness rots both your teeth and your soul. Bitter is what makes us strong, what forces us to push through, what helps us earn the lines on our faces and the calluses on our hands. Sweet is nice enough, but bittersweet is beautiful, nuanced, full of depth and complexity. Bittersweet is courageous, gutsy, earthy.

Now is your time. Become, believe, try. Walk closely with people you love, and with other people who believe that God is very good and life is a grand adventure. Don’t spend time with people who make you feel like less than you are. Don’t get stuck in the past, and don’t try to fast-forward yourself into a future you haven’t yet earned. Give today all the love and intensity and courage you can, and keep travelling honestly along life’s path.

…to be true about life, too. If you dig in and fight the change you’re facing, it will indeed smash you to bits. It will hold you under, drag you across the rough sand, scare and confuse you. This last season in my life has been characterized, more than anything else, by change. Hard, swirling, one-after-another changes, so many that I can’t quite regain my footing before the next one comes, very much like.

S.N Bittersweet

The Highly Sensitive Person in Love

To the Sober



Why do people often not take high sensitivity seriously?

Surprisingly, 15-20% of the population carries the trait that classifies them as highly sensitive, which means they respond to external stimuli more noticeably than non-HSP’s. In highly sensitive people (HSP), the part of their brain that regulates emotions performs differently than their less sensitive counterparts.

One reason is that it is a mostly invisible trait until you are around an highly sensitive person (HSP) long enough to notice certain needs and preferences, such as wanting more downtime or disliking loud noises. High sensitivity is not like hair colour, height, or gender.

Yet I think this trait has as much impact as gender, in that it affects all aspects of life – how you perceive the world and think about it, the kind of work that suits you, how you get along with others and how they get along with you.

We all live in the same communities, but we have very different needs and we cannot easily recognise who is sensitive, who is not. Not being able to see it or even have a good term for it until now, the huge differences in how people behave are blamed on everything except the real cause.

This can be a real source of aggravation in relationships, because we tend to think that if someone is doing something that doesn’t suit us, they ought to be able to change that behaviour if they really love us.

I can give you an example as a real trait: often non-HSPs think everyone should enjoy noisy restaurants or “small talk” and someone who doesn’t is just being fussy, difficult, or demanding.

Being highly sensitive is incredible. It’s beautiful. It’s raw.  But it’s also misunderstood, and a power that isn’t always easy to harness. And, let’s not forget its ability to heal.


Being highly sensitive is a natural and healthy condition, and it has a number of unique gifts:

  • Intuition – trust yourself

Highly sensitive people tend to be accurately perceptive of what is happening beyond outer layers — below the surface of situations, in the creases of crossings limbs, the pauses at the tip of exhalations, in between the lines, and without narrated reasoning.

Keep harnessing this power: learn to trust your gut, your ears, your shoulders, and your heart. Pay attention to the subtle reactions of your body aka inner world, and tap into the ability to feel the Oneness of all things. You are a vessel for transmission, and of great insight. Feel when your body is pushed forward or  backward people, places and things. Become aware, observe and react accordingly. The more you do it, the more it will grow.

  • Feel

Highly sensitive people can often feel the remnants of an experience, conversation or presence when entering a group, conversation or room. Being able to sense stagnant or left – over energy pockets creates an opportunity to learn how to cleanse, release, increase or decrease vibrations. In other words, to become aware of subtle energetic, flowing Universe around us.

  • Stop holding back, be Super Sexy

Yes. It’s true. Highly sensitive people are super sexy. Why? Mostly because they see through their hearts, love through their hands, and create with a hopeful light.

Keep harnessing this power: give yourself permission to move, create and engage in life intuitively, and with your entire body, and all of your senses. Allow yourself to become enlivened and so very open.


I’m a highly sensitive person, and I’m learning to accept and fall deeply in love with all that means.


What you have to do when you love a Highly Sensitive Person?


Most of all, accept them as the highly sensitive, emotional, complex person that they are. They can’t help how they feel and how they respond to the world, so simply embrace their true nature and enjoy the light that shines from their beautiful souls.


Empaths, or highly sensitive people, read energies and body language extremely well. If you want to continue a happy relationship with an HSP, you need to come clean about your emotions, because they will pick up on them regardless. However, they don’t like it when people hide things from them, so just remain honest and open in the relationship. Empaths can sense things going on deep beneath the surface, but they don’t like to play games. They need transparency and trust in a relationship to make it work.


They have a deep sense of the emotional world. They can feel other people’s pain and will try to fix it. In return they find themselves with a broken heart. They wear their heart on their sleeve. They have a deep, complex personality and just long for someone to accept and love them regardless of the emotional roller-coaster they tend to put people on. Just love them as they come, and they will love you right back.


Empaths desperately need to decompress from the world around them, and may disappear for hours at a time in their room. Know that they simply need time to process their environment and recharge after going out in society, and that they don’t want to hurt you. They are not retreating or avoiding you, but rather, protecting their precious energy stores. They get their energy from spending time alone, so make sure to give this gift to your highly sensitive lover.



Because their minds run a mile a minute, they sometimes have a hard time falling asleep at night. Talk to them gently, caress their back and arms, cuddle with them, or even read to them to get their mind to calm down. Empaths tend to worry about things quite a bit, so creating a peaceful environment at night can do wonders for their insomnia.


Empaths also tend to love nature and spontaneity, so if you love an HSP, take them on an unexpected trip. Surprise them; this makes them feel alive, and takes them away from the mundane nature of daily life that stifles their spirit.


Empaths can sometimes get in the habit of staying home too often and becoming a total hermit, so try to get them out of the house to challenge them and get them involved in things they love. Your HSP lover might show resistance at first, but they’ll thank you in the long run.


Empaths also love it when their partners take on creative projects with them – it makes for a great bonding experience, and plus, you might discover some previously hidden talents of your own!


HSP’s also need tons of love, so don’t hold back. Physical touch helps to reduce anxiety and depression, and in empaths, they feel these emotions on a much deeper level. Your affection helps them to feel loved and wanted, and will easily win them over.


Even beyond that, HSP’s need stimulation of the soul; they cannot engage in shallow relationships and meaningless conversations. Bring up topics such as how we got here, aliens, space, physics, animals, nature, or anything remotely deep that involves emotions and thinking on a higher level. Otherwise, they might just pretend to act interested in order to not hurt your feelings.


You Won’t Become What You Want To Be, You Become What You Fear To Be.

To the Sober

I knew I loved you before I met you,
I think I dreamed you into life.
I knew I loved you before I met you,
I have been waiting all my life.

I’ve never believed hardship or suffering was meant to be. I’ve never believed relationships were meant to be. Sometimes I think things happen for a reason. If there had once been a chance to meet somebody and there had once been love, then it will still be there in spite of time and obstacles. Destiny is usually just around the corner.

You often meet your fate on the road you take to avoid it. Because your destiny is real. Because your destiny has not been decided by others, but by you.  Because there are powers far beyond us. Because power is a fickle mistress. 

Have you ever met someone that made you feel like never before? Have you ever met someone who made you feel both happy and sad at the same time? This is simply a case of meeting the right person at the wrong time and it can be a painful experience. 

 If the right person comes at the right time, then everything is great. However, if they come at the wrong time in your life, it will remind you during your life. 

 You will carry it out because you choose to. There’s no need to blame fate or destiny for a stupid decision. And you won’t become what you want to be, you become what you fear to be.

Sometimes you may be the ideal person for your partner but entering a relationship with them at the wrong time is sure to cause unpleasantness. In this case you’re better off without your significant other as this relationship is doomed to fail. This goes both ways – if your partner simply isn’t able to be a loving partner you won’t get anywhere.

We all have arguments about not being able to enter a relationship at some point of our life. Some people focus on their career, while other seek more adventure in their life before settling down. Whatever the excuse, sometimes the simple truth is that at that point of your life you’re just not able to love completely. You’re not prepared to love your partner and try your hardest in the relationship and this can create big problems.

Your right person may not appear at the wrong time, but it can happen. Or they can be the right person for you, but if you are not the person you are meant to be, then the relationship will fail.

Did somebody send you to me? I didn’t even know I needed you. Life can be tough at times. We can’t go back to who we once were.

When you decide to settle down, you should only do it for someone who loves you unconditionally and who’s supportive, calm and warm. Partners shouldn’t be able to live without each other and should be an embodiment of deep love and caring. Only this can make a relationship going.

However, we sometimes meet people who we connect with on a deep level at a wrong point of our life. In this case, you’re better off exiting that relationship as you’re not ready for the compromises that need to be done and devote yourself to your partner.

The purest and deepest love is one when both partners invest in each other and when their emotions and thoughts are being shared.

If you happen to be with the right guy or girl, but you’re not ready to invest yourself in them fully, you need to let them go or you’re in for a painful ride. Yes, letting go of someone you love may be difficult, but – it’s the right move. If you’re in a difficult spot and aren’t able to deal with the hardships of a relationship, then you shouldn’t be in it. You should leave your partner to find another partner who’s able to give them all the love they deserve. 

Destiny is a fickle mistress and you may cross your paths once again. Can you hear whispering the secrets of the destiny into your year:

I was falling in love with her, and she was falling in love with me. It was fated, decided before any of us were born, and I hated it as much as I loved it. 

Until then, however, make sure to work on your issues and resolve them. Once you do, you may meet the right person at the right time and everything will work out great.

Shoshana (Шошана)


Hey girl, you look so nice,
Love is growing in your eyes.
In your body, in your smile.
Let’s be lovers for a while.

Come on let’s sail away.
Let’s find a place to stay.
Just forever and today,
Let’s be lovers anyway.

Oh Shoshana…(2X)

with you on my side,

Oh Shoshana,

Life is gonna be alright. 

OK gal, you look so nice,
love is growing in your eyes,
in your body, in your smile.
Let’s be lovers so awhile.

My First Vegan Cashew Cream Cheese

My first vegan cream cheese is just delicious.  I should call it cashew spread.


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  • 300 gr cashew nuts

  • ground sunflower seeds

  • lemon juice (1/2 lemon)

  • 1/3 tsp turmeric, ginger, horseradish, active brewing yeast and hot pepper (cayenne) 

  • 2 tsp pectin

  • 1:1 black and white pepper + whole cumin (less than 1/3 tsp)


How to prepare the cheese for 10 mins:

  1. Drain the soaked cashews (4 hours in water) and rinse thoroughly.

  2. Blend the cashews until you reach your desired consistency.

  3. Add ingredients.

  4. Place in the fridge (at least 2 hours).

    You can add any aromatics or other flavourings to this basic recipe. Next time I will use pine nuts and raw almonds as well.

Raw Beetroot – Avocado Creamy Soup

The link how to prepare Marinated Cod:



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How I prepared the creamy soup (no salt, nor sugar or oil):


  • 2 beetroots

  • 1 avocado

  • 1 mushroom

  • 1 small sweet apple

  • 1 green apple (the juice only)

  • 2 yolks

  • boiled bulgur and quinoa mix

Cut beetroots, the sweet apple, an avocado and a mushroom into small pieces. Blend after that. Add 2 yolks and mix of boiled bulgur and quinoa before you start your meal. You can add blended sunflower seeds as well.

I did not add ginger and turmeric this time, because the marinated cod was with ginger and chilli. 

You Are……

To the Sober

I Miss You

To the Sober

I miss you

My First Marinated Atlantic Cod Fillets. No Salt, No Sugar or Oil


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Atlantic Cod Fillet 8 oz (220 gr) Nutrition Facts:

Calories – 189, Sodium – 112 mg, Total Fat – 2 g, Potassium – 936 mg, Saturated – 0 g, Total Carbs – 0 g, Polyunsaturated – 1 g, Dietary Fibre – 0 g, Monounsaturated – 0 g, Sugars – 0 g, Trans – 0 g, Protein – 41 g, Cholesterol – 99 mg, Vitamin A – 2%, Calcium – 4%, Vitamin C – 4%, Iron – 4%.

It’s not surprising that the words “cod” and “cold” are so similar, just differing by one letter. It’s not surprising since cod need the cold. They need to live in deep, arctic temperature water to grow, reproduce and survive.

Like other fish, in addition to being consumed fresh, preservation techniques such as salting, smoking and drying were used to preserve the cod. This allowed it to be easily transported and stored and made it one of the most commercially important fishes.

Cod is an excellent source of vitamin B 12, selenium, phosphorus and protein. It is also a very good source of choline as well as a good source of niacin, potassium, vitamin B 6, molybdenum, pantheistic acid and omega-3 fatty acids.

Choline in 100g Cod

3 oz (85g)

1 fillet (90g)

79.7mg (14% AI)

67.8mg (12% AI)

71mg (13% AI)

How to marinade Cod:

Before marinade, fish must be frozen. After defrosting, take the skin off and cut it into tiny pieces. 


  • 2 – 3 lemons (the juice)

  • 8 – 10 small pieces ginger 

  • 3 cloves garlic 

  • 1 table spoon horseradish 

  • Cayenne pepper powder (not much)

Place the dish in the fridge for at least 12 hours. When I tried it, the marinated fish was just delicious.

Baby Spinach & Beetroot Raw Soup

My Raw Alkalising Green Soup with no sugar, salt or oil.



My raw soup how to prepare:

  • 125 gr baby spinach

  • 1 beetroot

  • 100 – 140 ml juice of 1 green apple and 3 carrots (for sweeter taste) 

  • 1/2 tsp turmeric

  • 1 yolk

  • boiled quinoa 

  • blended sunflower seeds

I eat the marinade salmon after the soup. Today I had to finish it, because the marinade salmon can stay in the fridge no more than 2 -3 days.

Accept Yourself, Love Yourself, and Keep Moving Forward

Do not let the memories of your past limit the potential of your future. There are no limits to what you can achieve on your journey through life, except in your mind.


Life is what happens to us while we are making other plans. But the good thing is you have to decide how you’re going to turn it down or around. Remember, sister will be your best friend in the world. 

What about lovers? They will come and go. I hate to say it to you…but actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart. But you do not have to give up, because if you do this, you’ll never find your soulmate. 

I always believe in myself, because if I don’t, then nobody will.

I can be poor, but I am not soulless and heartless. If you think I am, then you think wrong! Inside me there is something that has no name, that something is what I am.

You’ve got only yourself. Deal or not…I have no idea. It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away.  It’s so hard to keep it inside. And when you let it out and it doesn’t coma back.  It means only someone did not appreciate you, your feelings. That’s why you decide to be so alone, that you can’t explain. There’s nothing like that, is there? Are you nodding?  I’ve been there and you have, too.

In the end of each day I find out I have done what I could.  And never forget to love. Never make simple things complicated or simplify what is complicated. Never respect power, but do respect strength. And try to understand. And never look away. Do not go where the path could lead. I choose to go where there is no path. To leave a trail.

Life is for the living. If you want to forget someone, never hate them. And if you want to forget something, connected with the person, never hate it. Lost of something can be fixed. Hate can grow on your heart, in your heart as well. Then….there is only one way. To forget. To forgive yourself and to forgive others. That is what makes your self – respect so important. If a woman wants a man, nothing can stay on her way. If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.

And one day somebody will tell you: ” I would love to be forever in your heart.”

Then you must say: “When I walk, I walk with you.”

Any time not loving somebody is wasted. 

Just as a candle cannot burn without fire, man cannot live without a spiritual life.


Each Day I Love You More

To the Sober

Nothing’s ever the same, she said. 

NO, you are right. I love you more and more every day, he said.

My Raw Carrot – Pepper Soup and Marinade Salmon



How to prepare the raw soup:

  • sunflower seeds (blended)

  • 150 ml carrot juice

  • 1 blended pepper

  • 1 yolk 

  • boiled quinoa 

Marinade salmon I eat after my soup or salad.

My Healthy Sunny Dish With Marinade Salmon

Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful.  They are sunshine, food and medicine to the mind.

My first day I have fish after 30 days dieting and slowly started feeding my body.

I eat only raw food and do not cook it (cook only quinoa). I do not use salt, sugar or any type of oil. Only plenty of seeds. 


My Healthy Marinade Salmon

That is the link how to prepare marinade salmon, no sugar, no salt.

Tomorrow is my tenth day (I was on a diet for 20 days). I prepared the salmon for tomorrow and will stay in the fridge for 12 hours. It is so tasty and delicious.